Watching > Pillow Talk (1959)
Drinking > water
Stunned to discover my writing schedule will be absolutely crammed until the end of the year. I was approached for permission to use characters I’d created w/ a co-writer years ago, as she wanted to use some of the characters in her novel for NaNoWriMo 2013. The piece we did was never fully completed either, but I agreed on the condition that I was consulted on the story. She knows me well enough to have predicted my reaction, then I said I would be willing to outline the end of the story w/ her before NaNo and additionally pick up the story in December.
This is a schedule w/o including any side projects or short stories I might have a shot at. It isn’t including the loose work I’m doing on my haiku collection whenever I’m inspired. I’ll be able to do it, though it’s all a bit daunting. I’m not quite sure what I’m doing anymore to be completely honest. Tonight I was speaking to a close friend of mine about being hopeful + that she’ll improve over time w/ her writing. She said she didn’t know, but that I am ‘a brilliant writer.’ It’s funny b/c I do not feel like what she calls me. This is the very same friend who said I’m a very brave woman for pursuing a duel career as an artist/author.
There’s times were I feel utterly insane for even trying. It’s not luck. I don’t think I’m terribly talented, but know I work hard. It’s truly a matter of knowing how to edit, slice down to the essentials w/o losing your voice in the process + it’s taken me many years to discover this art. I did not have it a few years ago either.
I sat down during my lunch break, the other day, to work on a outline of sorts for End of All Days. Really? I’m not using a lot of it. They were some loose ideas + I decided those were all irrelevant considering the limit of the short story is 5,000 words. It’s still very different to be writing short stories + not lengthy fiction, although I haven’t written anything lengthy in over a year. I did use the deadline to sit there + eliminate anything I felt was unnecessary of O’s path. The only real hint is that my main female character’s name begins w/ an O.
Instead I’ve been doing some strangely impulsive things to connect to my main female character. I had the strangest urge to go to the lake nearby my work I’d only been to on one other occasion, ignored it + then went into work the following day. I got out of work at 7:30 PM + went w/ my urge to go to the lake. I found myself oddly connecting to O in such a profound way. I took in all the scents, then the mournful sound of the train struck me heavily. It was all very inspiring.
Sometimes I think I feel like a lunatic, but several things Tori Amos said about the process of writing really resounds. Searched for a quote, but came up empty. It’s just something I’ve remembered her saying over countless interviews + many things, even live she will say certain songs didn’t want to come out. She’s always viewed the songs as stories coming to her from others, sometimes they didn’t want to talk or communicate either. I completely understand it.
My writing process is a little bit strange in ways. I’ve tried to work on a solid writing schedule, but it’s always a waste of time in the long run. It’s more that I’m inspired at random moments, the voice or story arrives quite inconveniently. I understand my characters on a bizarrely confound level I cannot describe. I fill out character surveys in their voice, sometimes I don’t get much out of them either. O has taken a while to get to open up + she’s irked me on many occasions. Still, I feel strangely connected to her.
Stupidly, I’m adding the haiku collection into this all to be completed by the end of September. I’m completely insane. I think I’ll start fine tuning it during my lunch breaks + such. I don’t know what else to do besides release it through CreateSpace as haiku + poetry isn’t such a huge thing these days. I just need to figure out how to connect it to Amazon. Might as well find a source to let the madness out of my head, additionally I’d like the haiku collection to be out on time to give to someone when I see them in October.
Signing off as an utterly insane author…
(IMAGES: Lilo + Stitch, True Blood)